We got Sadie!

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Sadie and Mommy via Steve

It's a Rosh Hashanah miracle- my wish has been granted and Sadie is safely at home in Baltimore with my mom and stepdad. I'm making the trek down to Baltimore this weekend to puppy sit and couldn't be more excited.

I can't seem to get that song "We got Annie" from the musical Annie out of my head. All I hear is Grace, Daddy Warbucks' secretary, singing" "We got Sadie!"

Oh, just listen to the darn song, and then picture me as the scarily happy lady dancing around in the yellow dress:

(And now it's stuck in your head too. Sorry...)

We got Sadie! Oh, it's possible we might change her name. I'll be sure to take tons of pictures when I go home this weekend :) Yay, Sadie has a home.

If only I could tell you everything...

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photo via my sister, Michal

I've discovered recently that I often have trouble finding a balance between over sharing and not saying enough. Although I usually employ the former speech tactic (especially when I've had too much white wine), the latter does happen occasionally, but only when it comes to the opposite sex. I've found that I often don't say what I'm feeling, and by the time I do, the opportunity has passed and I've somehow managed to ruin everything.

When I recently got an email on Jdate from a boy I have yet to meet, I started to think about this balance between word vomit and silence. At this point in our "relationship," I can safely say it's not time to fully share who I am. And then he said this:

"Tell me a bit more about yourself." 

...which of course got me thinking. If I could explain myself to a person I've yet to meet and not be judged for anything I shared, what would I divulge? And that's when I decided to write this blog post, to share with you the things I can't say:

Hi, my name is Alana. I'm 21 years old and confuse the heck out of myself most days of the week. I fall for people at such a rapid rate, I surprise even myself. Plus, I tend to be sort of self destructive when it comes to my own heart, and as a result, my life is never short on drama. Have I mentioned that I've yet to experience a long term relationship? Mine are always capped at 2 months- when I can get over that hump, you know I'll be celebrating.

I come from a big family and have a super close relationship with my dogs. It's funny, because they're often the "people" I'm most excited about seeing when I come home for a visit. I say I'm afraid of squirrels, but lately I've had little to do with them, so I'm kind of indifferent. I'm also sort of fascinated by slugs- I think they're disgusting, but somehow I can't look away.

Quite often my nights are filled with anxiety dreams. Whether I'm dealing with issues that actually exist or are merely the fabrication of my hard working brain, anxiety dreams fill my nights. They're full of subconscious messages, whether relating to my family, work, or most often, my love life. I still have dreams about being unprepared for class. The dreams are always about high school, and my best friend has always completed her assignments while I come to class unprepared.

Though I love the idea of traveling, more often then not, I spend large parts of my vacations thinking about being home. I've become somewhat of a homebody- I love the comfort of my own bed, the endless possibilities of my closet and the familiar scent of my own shampoo. Packing makes me crazy- in fact, I could probably list packing as the most stressful part of my life right now. Oh, and my friend Julia said I'm most likely to pack a suitcase full of "parts of outfits"- she's totally right. I don't usually think about matching when I'm throwing things into a suitcase, just waiting to be done with a terrible ordeal.

And the thing is, I could keep going, but I won't. Sometimes I feel like a high powered waterfall- my words never stop flowing, and sometimes, it can be dangerous. Other times, I kick myself for holding back and getting scared.

Does anyone else have trouble finding the balance between saying too much and holding back?

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Better than Babysitting

I'm currently "babysitting" at my usual Wednesday afternoon gig. Why the quotation marks? Well, the only "kids" in the house right now are two kittens and a really cute dog with stomach issues. The girls are out right now- one is at a self defense class and the other is having a last minute play date with her friend.

So basically, I schlepped over here, thankfully with my laptop, and am waiting until the girls get home in a few hours. It's so peaceful here. It's warm, quiet, and I actually think I may have just finished my Natty-D paper. There's a cute little pooch laying next to me on the couch and all I want to do is curl up with him and watch TV. Sounds like a plan to me!

The only downside: my allergies are acting up. But, it's worth it...I'm about to go eat toaster waffles! Leggo my Eggo, my friend. Leggo my Eggo.

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