Sunday Confessional: I used my breakup in a motivational speech
Nov 23, 2009
Last night was our final concert of the season and my last concert ever. Though I wasn't really psyched about being there for a few reasons (recent breakup, feeling unprepared, nervousness, etc.), I went because I had to. After a day of barely eating and way too many hours spent sleeping, I got myself together, put on a pretty dress and made my way to the concert venue aka BU Central.
As the choreographer/costume designer/fun machine, I'm responsible for making sure everyone looks good. So, right before the show, I gave this inspirational speech:
It must have worked, because last night was our best concert ever! I will admit that I freaked out a bit during my solo- my song, "Why Can't I," is all about the beauty of starting a new relationship. As I stood there onstage, microphone in hand and staring at an autographed photo on the room's back wall, I willed myself not to be nervous. I think it was the words "...isn't this the best part of breaking up, finding someone else you can't get enough of" that really got me.
Though I tried to be happy, those words really spoke to me. Yesterday, my perfect, new relationship was dissolved- no longer was I sitting around, waiting for him to figure himself out. He says he can't love anyone right now, and that's a real shame.
Like I said to him in my final text message:
"I think I would have fallen in love with you if you'd let me. That's what hurts the most."
Comments
*clunk*
Oh man. Did you hear that? It was me totally falling in love with you a little bit more. You are just amazing.
Awww sorry to hear about your breakup- but at least you look fabulous and will meet someone new in no time! Glad the concert rocked!
1. your dress is ADORABLE!! Can I borrow it somehow? please??
2. You sounded great! I know how hard that must have been for you--but I'm sure the girls really appreciated your strength
3. Rachel, Ellie, and Riki look adorable, too
4. I just got honey on the keyboard
You look and sound beautiful! My roomate, Laura, was in the room when I played the video and complimented the song. See you soon(ish)!
I must watch this video when I am home from work! Good for you using something sad to make something good!
Good for you, girl! You looked and sounded great up there -- no one could ever have guessed what you were going through. That's showmanship!
WOW!
You're one brave girl! These things happen for a reason. Just know it will all work itself out in time. I can't check out the video at work, but I'll check it out at home :)
um I must know, where did you get your fabulous tights?!
and great job!!
Ann Taylor Loft :)
I'm about to cry. Like, honestly, giant lump in my throat from reading this and then watching the video. I love you, honey.
Aww congrats! You looked stunning on stage :) think about what a blast next semester will be.
That's my girl! Encore, encore!
I think you're absolutely lovely. If I could reach across states, I'd give you a big hug right now.
#1 You look adorable.. (I haven't gotten to see the video yet but I can't wait!)
#2 Ugh, I totallly have felt that way before in regards to the last text message you sent him... :( and that sucks. Timing is such a big factor in whether a relationship will work out, and it sucks that the timing was wrong for you guys. It will be okay though and you will find the right person, I just know it!! Hang in there. *hugs*
You look and sound just beautiful - what an inspiration; I'm totally one of those people who can't shake off the personal life if something majorly shitty happens - and you went and motivated others, had the best concert ever and used it to make something amazing happen. I'll totally think of this next time I have a crappy day and have to go teach a class :) *Hug*
I'm proud of you for using something painful as inspiration for something beautiful. And I'm so sorry about your boyfriend - knowing you could've loved someone, that IS the worst. Hang in there. Someone will let you, & it'll be infinitely worth the wait.
I've gotten way behind in my my RSS reader, so this comment is weeks after the post, but oh well. This entry brought me right back to a day in college...
I had been up all night having a long, unhappy conversation with my girlfriend that ended with us breaking up. Then, my day started with my a capella group's morning performance to welcome guests for parents weekend! Worst part? I had to lead on "Brown Eyed Girl," and yes, she had brown eyes.
Oh man. That situation is so frickin similar to mine. Weird.
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